Negative to positive

   Do you ever have a bad day,week, or experience and then you see someone who has it way worse than you do? It tends to make you feel better or somehow thankful for what you do have. Well, I'm finding more and more that I'm the person that makes others say "Damn... I guess my life isn't that bad." They say there is ALWAYS someone who has it worse than you do. That may be true, but I have yet to come across it. It is definitely a possibility that someone does have it worse than me, but somehow I do not think it is a probability... That is somewhat sad yet empowering at the same time. It's obvious why it would be sad, but the reason I feel it is empowering is because even though my life is more than a little hard- I am still making it work. I still have laughter and happiness in my life, and when I see people falling apart for much less, it lets me know I do have a sense of power and gives me the feeling of being able to conquer anything. Not that what other people go through is not real, raw emotion as well, I just am merely using the whole "Someone has it worse than you" but in reverse. It may sound like a weird concept, but it somehow gives me strength to know that even though I may have it worse, I continue to pull myself together and live- when others can not for a lot less.
    I always try to turn what may first seem like a negative into a positive. Of course, some negatives are much harder to turn then others. I'm still working on trying to turn cancer itself into a positive...so i'll let you know if I find out how. I would not hold my breath on that one though. In any case, I do the best that I can, and especially lately I feel like I've been getting better at it. Which is ironic because the negatives have been seriously coming hard lately- but practice makes perfect:) Quite frankly, I get so emotionally exhausted sometimes, I just have no more room in my mind for anything bad. Which leaves me no choice but to be positive.
   People have said to me "God doesn't ever give you more than you can handle." Now first of all, I would NEVER recommend saying this to a cancer patient...or anyone else for that matter. It is a bullshit saying. I handle what I have to because I do not have a choice in the matter. What is the alternative to not handeling it? Dying? If this saying were really true there would be no such thing as suicide. Just saying...because somebody has to. Luckily though, I have been able to handle my situation, but there are many others who have lost their lives to cancer- and I can tell you there is no fairness or reason to it at all. All any of us can do, whether a cancer patient or not, is to make the effort to push through crappy times and find laughter, and happiness but most of all inner peace. Life can be a merry chaos around you, but as long as you find your center and your peace, you have the power to come through to the other side. Negative to a positive:)